cheerful disbelief

There’s this wonderful story called Obstinate Uncle Otis. In it he disbelieves a whole bunch of things and they all disappear. He finally disbelieves that he exists and Poof~!

Anyway, that’s about where I am right now. I am cheerfully disbelieving everything in the hope it will go away.

Katie is off at the non bf’s; her previous plans got the parental “You’re old enough to make your own decisions but wow you sound like you’re going to get deleted and then deleted in a truck with a couple of deleted” seal of disapproval. For reasons best known to herself Katie decided that these wonderful plans, which don’t sound worse for having the details omitted, were probably not advancing her long term best interests and decided to chill with her non bf instead, which all things considered constitutes a large improvement. I mean, I actually like the kid, and he has a JOB.

Paul was off at circle last night in Poco; he says it was wonderful as always; I was glad to hear it.

Anyway, if anybody has GOOD news, please let me know.

Have you been enjoying the onslaught of mooses? It’s amazing what you get when you imagegoogle weird moose. I am now wondering what other quaint critters I can find.

I light a candle for John and Jackie Knill who were confirmed dead in Thailand. They were friends of a friend of mine; she ran into them in a coffee shop the day they left. We must love each other while we can.

I light a candle for Unca Dave, who blew through town this week and I didna get to see him. I light a candle for Paul, who is not having a good time these days. And for Keith, who went to Karate even though his mouth was still really sore from the dentist.

i am a lamprey

Richardsoni in yer face
2005-02-25— Posted by: allegra

Its own mother will never love that face.

life forms
2005-02-25— Posted by: allegra

Dang nab it! I should always check my mail before I post. Jim P sent me this. This is a Morrison Creek Lamprey, an endangered species, and a very nice cat (either Darla or Nala, I can never remember which). Close up of sucker mouth next.

Pain scale

I’ve just smoked a ball of opium – no pain (no conversation either, but oh well)

note to anyone reading this. I smoked opium precisely once, ten years ago, and while I’m glad I did it for archival and educational purposes I have no interest in doing that again because candidly it was about the best I ever felt, and we all know how that goes

usual amount of pain from joints which never goes away and sometimes moves up the scale

sunburn

costochondritis

chest pain from humiliation or breakup <— mental, but it still fucking hurts

IBS flare up

migraine

gall bladder colic

broken shoulder

L5-S1 disc blowout

childbirth – LOTS OF PAIN

 

Steve Earle

Yikes Lexi I never paid for the Steve Earle (and the Dukes) ticket. But I will. Amazing concert. Just bloody amazing. Now that I’ve seen him live, I’m definitely a fan – and I nearly swooned when he pulled out a mandolin, although I remember thinking that I’d heard some mandolin on a Steve Earle tune before. No duh! Copperhead Road – there’s even mando tab on it when you google images for Copperhead Road. Considering that I felt like hammered scrap most of yesterday it’s startling how perky I felt when I left the Commodore last night. Then came home and chilled with Katie before I collapsed. Another gorgeous mornin’ – Paul will be home soon and I get the car, tra la la. Steve Earle characterized himself as a borderline Marxist! Hope ev’y’body has a good week.

various family things

The great thing about being at my mother’s place, besides the notion that it’s the most peaceful place imaginable, is that I get a lot of slack cut for when I do my post. So it’s now late morning and I can sit down and tell the world that

1. Nineties music videos are not really all that great. I mean, I watched part of the ‘top 90 music videos of the 90’s’ and thought that I feel sorry for the aliens trying to piece our culture together from this whale dreck.

2. I really like Tommy Lee Jones and Cate Blanchett. Now you can guess which movie I watched. Also, Ron Howard actually knows how to direct children, which is really no surprise when you think of it.

3. Keith has fled to ‘the club’ being his uncle’s place. There they can grunt and scratch and be manly.

4. One of my relatives is expecting a baby. Unfortunately I can’t say who yet because her mother in law doesn’t know. My grandma’s saying My Family Can Never Be Too Big comes to mind.

5. I have now read the story that “It’s a Wonderful Life” is based on, and wow is it corny.

6. Remember that history is not always written by the people who were there. I have now seen what happens when a cruel and selfish man is turned into a saint in his old age by a well meaning historian, while the nephews that he worked half to death raise their eyebrows and chorus, as one, “b— s—!”.

7. I come from a long line of people who do kindly things on impulse, and who believe that when something’s meant to be, the way will clear.

8. I get to look more like my great aunt Elsie every year. This is a tragedy, but at least I don’t have facial bumps. And she was a nice lady.

9. My mother is working on the Siberian portion of our family history. During the collectivization and the Great Patriotic War, a lot of Mennonites including my kinfolk died, mostly of starvation, typhus and firing squads. For anybody reading this, no matter how hard your life is right now, you aren’t watching your 16 year old sister die after giving day to a child conceived in rape by the party stalwart running the local collective (the child lived a day). And if your life is that bad, you are likely not living in Canada.

10. Yes, I’m feeling somewhat grim.

11. To lighten the tone somewhat, I should mention that Katie and I walked down to the beach yesterday with our cameras, and I wish to god I had a USB cable or I’d show some of the pix I took yesterday; some of them are actually not bad. It was a lovely walk and Katie was in a really good mood (made better at the end of the day by a call from the D-man) so we were bopping up and down the beach scaring seagulls and taking pictures of driftwood and I was playing with the exposure settings, etc. I hope the picture of the burl comes out okay.

12. I would be feeling pretty good today but a HOWLING wind blew up and as I was attempting to sleep in the sunroom I got to lie there calculating which parts of my body would be obliterated by Douglas Firs. There are some damned big trees close to my parents’ place. I was thinking how funny it would be if I got staked by a branch from a Douglas Fir like something out of Buffy. So I am inadequately rested.

13. Debuted the Tapioca Song for my parents. Quit after the second chorus, as the expression of rising horror in my dad’s face was quite reward enough for my efforts.

14. Soon, the ferry, and home. And laundry. And a return for the complete lack of normalcy that passes for family life. Pic is something random.

Polar bear with pumpkin

Into the “Live long enough and you’ll see some crazy sh’t” file goes a new datum. The Nigerian scammers went through the Dorothy Dunnett archives and have started sending their classic letters to what is probably the most skeptical and refined group of women (present company excepted – and there are a few guys, but not many, in the fan club) on the planet. We viewed this in a mood between hysterical paralysis (suppressed laughter) and bilious fury.

My life is about to get complicated and scary again. I can’t really say anything else except that I’m looking forward to an opportunity for us to really show what we’re made of. 2019 says I have no fucking idea what this means.

Pokey went crazy yesterday and attacked Paul. He has a lot of very big scratches.