Yesterday I fell victim to pathetic fallacy and had another bad day. It was raining pretty hard when I went to work, and I thought about John off and on all day. I feel like I can’t move, can’t function, can’t communicate effectively. A leaden feeling pervades everything. The smallest thing will upset me. Even the prospect of having Katie here for the evening (Planet Bachelor is full up as Ruth and the girls have arrived already and Dax’ place is a little cramped) didn’t cheer me up.
And I feel I should just be able to shake it off. This morning is a little better. A shower, a cup of coffee, a little self care. Jeff is being very kind. I have work to do.