pulling my horns in

Once again feeling very ill at ease in my own body. A couple of days ago I was experiencing no pain and right now my back hurts so much I feel almost crazy with it.

Paul’s about to come over. It’s a soggyfoggy day in Burnaby so we’ll be mall walking, probably at Lougheed. We shall see.

I’ve written 4500 words in the last three days and I’m already sad with it because I can’t make it go the way I want, and I’m letting go of certain ideas and everything on the inside of my skull grates and hurts and slides around.

Calling the doc now to make an appointment to follow up on last fall’s bloodwork.

Self-care.

 

Later… Jeff and Paul and I walked at Lougheed and then had lunch at Chronic Tacos. SOOOOO GOOOOD.

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Allegra

Born when atmospheric carbon was 316 PPM. Settled on MST country since 1997. Parent, grandparent.

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