crappy until almost sunset

Managed not to sleep the entire day away but that hardly constitutes an accomplishment.

two blonde caucasian children pose on a balcony in Scarborough in 1964

europeans don’t understand why we don’t bury our hydro poles – a winter dawn

Paul in profile during a foggy day at the Quay

although it looks shiny here it’s now been on my front porch so long it no longer has any colour

this n that n this

Another bad day for me yesterday, spent a lot of time sleeping. Weather AGAIN is atrocious, will it ever be summer?

Couple of loads of laundry, made some banana bread which as far as I can tell got demolished over the Castle and Time Teams we watched yesterday. LET’S JUST EAT BANANA BREAD AND IGNORE THE SHIT SHOW of american cities catching fire because the cops are assholes

WE MUST GO WALKING TODAY we need to get out the house.

blast from the past

I miss that dress. I don’t miss those glasses, or how raggedass my eyebrows are.

Jeff and I have started a rewatch of Castle. Gosh doesn’t Nathan Fillion look young and slender!?

the boys

So I spent money on line again, but I got TWO unboxing experiences, one with Paul and one with Mike.

The device is called a GoSun Go and it’s a 2 pound solar oven. Paul and I boiled water for tea and shared a cup. It was most pleasant. Later on in the afternoon I asked Mike if he wanted it, he said yes but he didn’t want to have to lug it back since he walked over, so we pretended to unbox the previously unboxed one and he started thinking about what he wants to cook on the beach.

Jeff and I went for a walk in Hilda Park yesterday morning. I wore my face shield, but there was nobody in the park and with the wind and sun, which was continuous, I didn’t really feel scared of no virus.

Rex Murphy talking about how Canada is not a racist country when every inch of it is built on land stolen from the Indigenous nations is quite the thing.

one little hug

I am slightly less touch deprived than I was yesterday because Katie gave me a hug when she came by on Sunday. Alex didn’t want to visit, but I got that photo…

Weather is horrible for May. We’re getting a summer that wasn’t, our first in about ten years.

My racism, inherent in not wanting to get lumped in with all other white people, still exists because based on my life and works I’ve been an ally for about 4.5 seconds. My moral disgust with whiteness takes the form of mild inconvenience, not an ongoing threat to my life.

I want to avoid the dangers inherent in ‘being a white person working on my anti-Blackness’ but as far as I can determine, the biggest one has always been becoming too numb to support anti-racism with daily, concrete, considered and faithful action.

katie and alex

those are jellyfish masks from the Aquarium, a fundraiser to keep buying fish for the otters

not in public

saw a typo so egregious I was moved to type:

fix the typo or face the unreckonable fullness of my colon and my spleen

such horrific vistas are mine to conjure, these words are the sand of my playspace

Now normally when one is trawling the internet, one leaves typos alone. There are variants on alone, such as private messaging, where you can address someone out of the glare.

But when it’s a newspaper, nope, no holds barred.

pOp will likely burst out laughing

These two pictures were taken 20 seconds apart using exactly the same preset camera defaults.

when people look a certain way, or don’t look a certain way, remember that even without makeup, you can do amazing things to how people look

white woman looking fraught — Tis an ogre, captured upon the trail cam

who let that cat in here?

a fluffy orange and white cat rests upon a beige and orange carpet — Buster

Cheerful Allegra scorns all notion that I could be feeling dreadful in the middle of a pandemic

cassandra busts a move

I haven’t said much about the revolutionary actions taking place at the moment because nobody asked me to. However: I support the protesters, I abhor the actions of the people firing into crowds of protesters, acab, brace for disproportionate reprisal actions across the US… and two generations of social justice actors picked off by coronavirus in jail when they’ve been rounded up on literally trumped-up charges. Crucial to keep an eye on specific actors and try to prevent them from ‘disappearing’. By the fascism playbook, that’s next.

and Black and Indigenous activists are coldly aware that disappearances are ongoing from colonialism and liberalism.

shlepping trip

I am very happy that I’m home, but it’s also lovely to have FOOOOOOODICLES and treeeeeeaaaticles.

Walmart was a ghastly ordeal but I didn’t have another place to go for the stuff I needed.

My Vancouver Aquarium masks arrived (including one for Alex) but paypal refunded my money. I’ve now sent two emails to the address associated with the purchase but Pauline, whoever the fuck she is or isn’t, was only prepared to give me a website address WITH NO CUSTOMER SERVICE EMAIL.

faaaaack