slow day

All I want to do is sleep, watch tv and eat junk food. I think my pandemic grief is acting up. My mood has been terrible, even though Paul has been dragging me out of the house for walkies.  I’ve been trying to write and I know what’s coming next but I have no urge. I’m thinking dark thoughts. Tomorrow will likely be different.

The chicken and ginger congee that Mike made for me is so damned good – Paul got a meal out of it today as well. Gorgeous day, windy and sunny and cloudy by turns, and warm, the way most of February really was not.

what makes it work

 
When did I ever think that it would ever be easy
When did I ever dream that it would ever be easy
And the older that I get, the harder it becomes
to do the things I should, to do the things I must
And I will push along, now that I know that I have to
And I will move along, now that I know that I should
You are part of why I keep trying to be better
You are a lot of why I decide to stay here

And that’s because of how much
I really love and respect you
And that’s because of how much
I really love and respect you

for Jeff Sept 8 2009