I’m sorry, but the world must needs know about my bagels
DaÆ’ter Katie is here, and shee is cleverly making bagels. We found a really good bread maker recipe, which means I’ll be making more bagels in future. First batch in oven, second batch is in the breadmaker. Continue reading I’m sorry, but the world must needs know about my bagels
2009 roundup, my good wishes for this year 2010, and I’m outta here for a week
January I went to Conflikt II, one of the last times I saw John. I bought him a meal, and that makes me happy; there’s video of him from the con, and that makes me happy, too. I started dating a nice man, but he some months later abruptly stopped calling me when I said something as a joke to one of his friends. It was too bad; his trailer site down by the border is one of the best kept secrets in the lower mainland, and I did like his friends and they enjoyed my music. Once I tried to kiss him and his dog got in the way. I would give anything to have pictures of his mastiff cross Sammy getting a big smack in the jowls from me. Given that we didn’t so much as kiss for the rest of our dating career, he wasn’t the right guy for me, but I also know he had had a horrific divorce and might have been dating because his friends were bugging him to. I think kindly of him.
February I sent Valentine’s cards to my coworkers. If I am going to do it again this year, I should probably start writing the poems now. I saw David Byrne while wearing a holter monitor, and if that isn’t one of the most baby boom quotes ever, well, I am in the wrong demographic bulge. I got a holter monitor because I had chest pain, triggering an ambulance call, which pain was, apparently, stress related. I also got the last of my hepatitis shots and distributed biscotti at 4 in the morning at Conflikt II.
March I visited with Wendybird, I also got Miss Margot, two days after seeing her picture for the first time. I did it; I fell in love with another creature because I saw her picture. I really feel like she was destined to come and live with me, and now, when she sits nose to nose with Eddy on Jeff’s bed and bats Gizmo’s tail while he does the cat equivalent of rolling his eyes, she’s just one of the family. I can hear her snoring right now. I also bugged my dad enough that he coughed up a single family story. Bwa ha ha! Paul and I got a great visit in with cousin Ruth and Katie read the Sookie Stackhouse books after being exposed to True Blood. Paul had what he found out later was going to be his last alone time with his brother John; they sang and played together, which they hadn’t done in ages.
April John was struck off his motorcycle by a woman in Victoria. I made a canonical list of my songs (topping out at 130 – the total is now 152 so I’ve either written 22 songs in the last 8 months or I remembered some I’d earlier forgotten or some combination thereof) . I had a hissy fit and tried to bail on living with Jeff; with some effort (more on his end than mine) it didn’t happen and all I can say, sitting in my living room in my quiet little house in Burnaby, is thanks Jeff. I also thought about renting a trailer site in White Rock. Glad I didn’t do that either.
May Jeff and I got an eviction notice, and John died 15 minutes before we got to the hospital, in a one two punch over two days that drove me insane for about two months. I looked okay, I sounded okay, and I was definitely, hopelessly and pretty much every minute I was conscious – not okay. Carrie stayed with us a while. There were horrible bad words exchanged with Paul’s relatives about the memorial service, and I’d like to publicly state that not talking about that on my blog was very hard to do. I gave notice at work. I couldn’t concentrate anyway. At the end of May we found where we are living now thanks to Paul’s timely information. I thank Mike most reverently for the material and moral support he provided to me after John’s death; Jeff’s love and support was just about the only thing that kept me going some days.
June I left my job after a lovely going away party; Miss Margot was neutered; we moved in here, and the cats were very, very happy to have a nice big back deck and a yard and alleyway to explore. Went to John’s Memorial Pondfilk and it was lovely.
July the pinball games came to live in the basement. I wrote a lot of songs down. Jerome and Shannon had a little boy. My little cousin Alyssa turned one. I attended Patricia’s Cavalcade of Cheese. Went to Wreck Beach with Katie and her friends and Mike, and it was just about the most enjoyable day ever. I decompressed a great deal.
August me and Jeff and Mike went to the Pretenders and it was the best outdoor concert I’ve ever been to. Read the most recent translations of Rumi and the Epic of Gilgamesh and was moved to tears by both. Paul and I visited Unca Dave at the Cancer Lodge. That would be the second last time I saw him alive, and the last time for Paul.
September I went to the Jericho beach folk club a couple of times and was treated to awesome concerts there. We emptied the last of the storage lockers and thereby saved ourselves some bucks. I met Vilma, Mike’s new GF, and found out I had a bunch more songs tucked away someplace, so my lifetime total of songs crept up another notch. Katie and Keith and I went to Victoria to say goodbye to Unca Dave. I bought a Kaossilator after jamming with Brian C and Mike on a fabulous evening (which Katie also attended, and during which I heard Jeff and Keith, watching something funny downstairs, laugh so hard they made the house shake.) I started getting more involved with church.
October I had THE BEST HOLIDAY EVER in Ontario. I got totally energized by what happened to me; seeing Deb, Jan, Chipper, Catherine and Tammy made me so happy I nearly exploded with it, and seriously, when I am having a rough day, I think about that holiday and FEEL BETTER. Boingboing.net ran an item on lampreys and I used it as an opportunity to drive traffic to Jim Palmer’s Lampreyland site (see sidebar). I moved minced moose to the minister. (Honestly, you thought I’d get through a whole year of recap without once mentioning moose? Whose blog is this?). I did one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life, and I can’t talk about it publicly.
November I turned 51 the day my Unca Dave died. Keith said, Now I’ve lost two cool uncles in a single year. I had one amazing date with a guy who never called me back. I had another amazing date with a guy who never called me back. I spend a lot of time wondering what the hell is wrong with me. I applied for my old job.
December I avoided Christmas but not family get togethers, and started dating a really cool guy with a very chill dog. We have in the short time we’ve been dating met our exes and some of our kids. I auditioned for a band and didn’t get it. I emailed a woman who’s putting together women only rehearsal space and that appears to be happening in January, but we’ll see. I learned how to clean Margot’s eye gunk properly and trimmed her whiskers, which were pushing into her eyes when she was trying to eat, a most unhappy and unsanitary state of affairs. And I greeted the new year with snores, as evidenced by me mout’ bein’ as dry as a sand trap when I woke up this morning.
In summary; 2009 was a transitional year. I quit looking for a boyfriend (this one will either work out or I will quit looking); I got a lot of work done but not nearly enough to satisfy me; I reconnected with church and formally rejoined; I found out what I’m like when somebody close to me dies and I really didn’t enjoy the learning; I learned a great deal of family history and each fragment of it falls into place in such a way that the fabric of life is made richer and stronger; I realized that my gifts are greater than my challenges.
I send a big hug out to all my relations, friends and readers; I hope 2010 is a year full of enticing prospects and the riches of family, work, contentment, honour and playful creativity. And biscotti.
Now it is with some trepidation that I announce I’ll be intermedia fasting for the rest of the week. So, no blogging, no tweeting, no facebooking, no livejournal, no compulsively checking email. I’ll see you back here on the 8th.
My new year started early
It was only 3 am. I decided, what the hell, and got up. It’s a beautiful fog shrouded night in Burnaby…. not sure I like the implied metaphor for the start to the year, but so it goes.
More New Year’s stuff
(link removed for security reasons) I especially like the second last paragraph.
Also, new interview with Philip Zimbardo (Stanford Experiment) about heroism.
And, isn’t it amazing how an article can be 5.5 years old and still pointedly relevant?
Jesus is coming. Or not.
You know how I said that Jesus is late for his appointment??? Personally I think he’s a no show. The Kingdom of God and the Immanence of Christ are right here, right now. You may call it something else, but you can’t wait for Jesus; he’s already here. That’s why I always thought the Rapture was bad theology; it’s just an excuse to sit on your ass (among many, I have my own excuses and I don’t need yours) while the poor suffer.
Now we know why Jesus is late!
When he finally makes it past the abortionist’s curette, the Christians will claim this is his second visit, and the Jews will get all stabby because they will say this is the first time he came to the party. The Muslims won’t take any proof that either group offers, even as Messiah chews through Jerusalem like Taz on crystal meth (remember he promised us a sword… when he bails on the Temple and starts pulling prostitutes out of their cribs and healing their AIDS, and then publicly blasting the rabbis for their lack of care of the poor, what a glad day that will be!!!) And Isa PBUH (Jesus, Yeshuah) is a Messiah for Muslims, he’s just not the son of God, just to make it even more confusing. Crazy times.
The essentials of messianic thought in Judaism. Ganked from Wikipedia, sorry.
Belief in the eventual coming of the moshiach…is part of the minimum requirements of Jewish belief. In the Shemoneh Esrei prayer, recited three times daily, we pray for all of the elements of the coming of the moshiach: ingathering of the exiles;
*ed note… Bonnie, Alan, are you guys going to live in Israel soon? If you can hold off, I’d like that.
restoration of the religious courts of justice;
*ed note. Bleaugh. Because, you know, justice for women and children sucks SO BAD.
an end of wickedness, sin and heresy;
*ed note; right about then I started breathing again, because at this rate the Messiah can only return in the middle of a wasteland, the rest of us having croaked.
reward to the righteous;
*dunno what that means, but it sounds good
rebuilding of Jerusalem;
*urban renewal as a religious prescription? Kewl.
restoration of the line of King David;
*Read King Jesus on that topic, yes indeedy.
and restoration of Temple service.
*once again, urban renewal mashup with religion. And it sounds like a Tweet from translink.ca. Interesting. But with all of these restrictions, I don’t need to worry about a Jewish Messiah any time soon. After all, in the days of the Apostles, they said it would be any minute, but that just reminds me of a joke, “God is it true that to you a thousand years are like a minute and a million dollars is like a penny?” “Yes, my child.” “Can I have a penny?” “Just a minute.”
Ah, religion! My fave.
Plotting and planning
Coffee’s up, I’ll go grab it in a minute…. here’s my New Year wishes….
Revellers, depart with care
From chill 2009
2010’s embrace may be
Nowhere near as fine
Approach with caution, friends close by
and plans all carefully laid.
Some depart this year with glee
And some with great cost paid.
Unemployment, lack and dearth
Attend some of us nightly
Easy, then, to love the earth
and live upon it lightly.
And to your fellow creatures be
as kindly as you may
And blessed be in all you seek
Next year in work and play.
Jeff gets a half day off, which is pleasant. We’ll probably find something appropriate to watch.
I made turkey soup with barley, and butter turkey (store bought sauce) yesterday. It was yummy. So, no boring roast turkey in the fridge, yes; it has all been transformed back in the food… I can hear Catherine chiding me with amusement, as I put bread stuffing in the bird and that does not improve the stock. Next year for sure I will do the stuffing on the side. There’s less waste and better stock, so I will do as she advises.
I will make my New Year Resolutions again; I feel like Pinky and the Brain. “Same thing we do every night…”
I love my brother
He rented me “A Midwife’s Tale” an American Experience documentary. OMG it was SOOOOOOO GOOOOOD. Really. I can think of many people who need to see this. He and I and Keith watched it.
Best sales pitch EVAR
Suddenly I want to buy a USB accelerometer. I have no idea how I ended up at this site.
Brain empty, repost
Keith sent me the following email, so I am reposting it. The apple don’t fall far from the tree, as a rule.
A Regular Canadian Family.
… Aren’t they cute? Not even remotely.
Check this out: Montreal mafia Don’s son killed
This is so awesome I have to write some of my take on the yarn.
The dead guy is the son of a man named Vito Corleo-excuse me Rizzuto. Vito is doing a stretch in the USA for racketeering, and quote “being present at” unquote the murder of three made men in 1981. Vito is due to be handed back over to Canadian authorities in 2012.
This guy’s Wikipedia page is unbelievable. Apparently the Montreal Mafia is huge. As will be the likely response to the slaying of Nick Rizzuto. These guys have a larger geographical territory than any of the legendary/mythical Five Families, and apparently while nominally under the Bonnanno banner, the Rizzuto rival any Families in money and influence.
The cherry on the cake for me is the fact that Vito may in time be extradited to Italy in connection to- what do I hear? Murder? Nope. Extortion? Nuh-uh. Bribery of public officials? Not even close. Alleged money laundering in the finances of a public works project to build a fucking bridge. From Sicily to mainland Italy.
All we need now is a witch doctor to resurrect Mario Puzo, so he can make a movie out of this man’s story. Or maybe the crew that made Bon Cop Bad Cop could do it.
Disorienting day
The transit trip out to Richmond left me in broadloom biting mode, with extra rantiness, so the less vented the better. Harley the Akita Lab cross still loves me, which was nice. There was much conversation and a bite or two of yummy Japanese food. I was home by 7 o’clock, my new beau gave me a lift back. I have discovered in my little heart a great fondness for Foghat, that old Canadian band. I know it’s insane, but when I hear that music I feel happy.
Jeff and I then watched Wolverine. I’ll watch Hugh Jackman sleepwalk his way through a v.crappy script anytime. He was so buff he didn’t look real.
I accidentally locked Eddie in my room all day. I am officially a bad housemate.
Off to Richmond
I won’t post again until tonight.
Today was the first morning in ages that there wasn’t frost all over everything.
And now, a picture of a hitchhiking sloth
Slothy was swimming, but decided to hitch a ride when offered.
scary stuff
Oh, no, I feel a rant coming on
All creativity comes from God? You have GOT to be kidding me. Yes, the article is about something else, but that was the quote that caused my bowels to rumble and my breath to catch.
Creativity does not come from God. Creativity is definitely affected, channeled, restricted or liberated by belief or unbelief in God, gods, fairies, the Kraken, lil green tentaclechicks and Eric Northman, but creativity is an inside job.
I have spent an entire lifetime, well, since I wrote my first song at the age of eight, thinking about creativity. What is it? Where does it come from? Where does it go when it’s gone? What is it for? How does one define it broadly enough so that it’s accurate and narrowly enough so that it’s useful? Who gets to call what’s creative creative?
Are animals creative? If they are . or aren’t . what does their activity say about human creativity?
I will take a stab at a definition. I didn’t look at a dictionary first or wikipedia, so forgive me if this sounds clueless or twee.
Creativity is a normal behaviour in which a human being applies what he or she knows or intuits about the world to a novel situation; this creativity may be a thought or it may make an appearance in the world. When this application is successful it’s called creativity; when it’s unsuccessful it’s called a failure or an experiment. It’s all creativity but the reaction to the results is different.
All creativity is rooted in preference. If you take six dogs, or six cats, or six orangs, or six people, and ask them to state or make plain their food preferences, you will see that all of them, given choices, will zero in on what they genuinely prefer, or on what they think the other critters want (the whole I didn’t want it until you wanted it thing that I see play out at the food dish every day). The basic building blocks of creativity are being used the minute an individual thinks “I want….”
There are three levels of creativity. One is mechanical and we share it with higher mammals (and corvids, and cephalopods and many psittacines). It is the application of physical objects in the physical world to achieve a particular survival goal, or acquire some preferred item.
The second level is where most of us play. It happens when we do, think, make or physically embody something new, having learned the mechanics, or basics, of some human skill. nautilus3 claims my song writing is somehow superior to her quilting, but they are much of a muchness. Once she knew how to quilt, she got better and faster at it. Once I knew how to write songs I got better and faster at it; the principle didn’t change. Songwriting comes out of the place where math meets speech and emotion. Drumming comes out of the place where math meets movement (along with dance and cheerleading). Quilting comes out of the place where math meets colour and texture. (nautilus3 STILL hasn’t done a Penrose tiling quilt, no matter how many times I hint…).
The third level is where people make a category concept error and ascribe the product of human intelligence to God. It is creativity, but of a completely different and novel kind. Truly novel, not merely accomplished or polished or worthy of study for technical excellence. In order to be set among the blessed roster of human genius, you must think, and cause to appear clearly, an entire discipline. For example, the first human being who taught himself to knap flint; the human who took that knowledge and made herself a baby sling because she’d given birth to twins and couldn’t tote both of them (think how she was without other resourceful females at the time and you’ll see how it happened). One invented a new class of tool and weapon; the other invented a method of making sure she got enough food while she was nursing two younguns. Playful younguns. Curious, greedy and helpless younguns; the type who inspire their parents and elders to spend a lot of time thinking about how to keep them safe, how to keep them well, how to keep them fed. Remember, every proto human who formed a thought which resulted in one of his or her descendants living to breeding age skewed our DNA; remember, every living human being had an ancestor who went through a cheetah style reproductive bottleneck, and only the most adaptable, creative, tough and cooperative humans made it through, what with the climate going ass over teakettle, the food supply altering dramatically and the requirement to move quickly and efficiently through all kinds of terrain while encountering new threats and predators pushing down on the weak, slow and sickly. Creativity in human beings is so obviously one of the differences between humans and our kin that we forget that it TOO is an adaptation. The best of all possible adaptations, although, for the sake of the planet, maybe not so good. Creativity can also be directed to the invention of derivatives of asset backed securities and the use of mercury in precious metal mining.
The human who systematized hunting and alarm calls for his troupe and nudged humans towards language; the human who mastered fire and invented cooking; those were the creative geniuses. These days people apply the word genius with gay abandon; I only apply it people who create a new discipline. James Cameron is a really good director, but he isn’t a genius. He has not created a new discipline; he has given himself entirely to a discipline which is well established, the art of storytelling through film. To create a new discipline is not merely to be creative; it is to light, with the torch of reason, an entire area of human capacity WHICH WAS NOT VISIBLE BEFORE and to transfer the capacity to the judgment and use of the world. Einstein was a genius. Edison was a genius (also a thief, thug and anti-Semite). Marie Curie was a genius. Why? ‘Cause after they pointed something out, everybody could see it. Before they pointed it out, it didn’t exist. Somebody had to invent calculus and it’s a good thing, too, because the internet wouldn’t exist without calculus. (Because the sciences which support all these packets flying around would be crippled without it). If you read the Wikipedia article about calculus, about ten dudes from a multitude of cultures contributed to the foundations upon which calculus was built; but it took two guys, Leibnitz and Newton, to create a useful discipline. But, as I was saying, the discipline wasn’t there before. That is true creativity.
As much as I enjoy songwriting and am proud of my output, it’s second order creativity. It’s true that nobody had to show me how to do it; that’s a natural gift. It’s like watching Wayne Gretzky skate in his back yard when he was 4. The combination of encouragement (or in my case, benign neglect, while surrounded by the most glorious voices in folk music as I was growing up) and innate talent (I was harmonizing when I was tiny, because harmonizing is something I do without thought or effort) makes the application of skill to novel situations look effortless. However, nothing I’ve done has expanded song writing; all of the major elements of everything I do was either codified or made traditional somewhere between 500 and 1000 years ago. Wayne Gretzky, for talent, love of the game and character, is a model hockey player, but he’s not a genius; his creativity, like mine, colours inside the lines.
Nothing anybody can say to me will make me believe that God is guiding my hand when I write songs. It is true that I am sometimes flabbergasted by how fast and how strong it do come on sometimes, but I’m also flabbergasted by how badly I can lose my temper in a short period of time, or how fast I can assemble a tasty meal, or respond to someone else’s quip. When it goes well, it goes as fast as the human mind and body can carry it, but that goes for everybody. The trick is having a sense of humility about the whole thing. Somebody invented a system for me to write down songs; until I come up with a better way of doing it (and by god, I hate the system we have now), I’m a 2nd order creative determined to sign my own work. There’s no shame in that, but twould be a shame indeed if I asked God or the Tooth Fairy to take the credit.