to the sound of Jeff tapping on his keyboard. Sometimes it’s a cat and that staccato defooding sound in some very long-to-be-discovered corner. Sometimes it’s the smell of a skunk penetrating through the window; sometimes it’s my natural clock, which spits me back out into consciousness anywhere between 2 and 7 am. Sometimes it’s a leg cramp, and that’s what I got this morning. I woke to pain pain pain and had a hell of a time getting my foot flat to the ground to get the muscle stretched out and the muscle – the same one I blew out running for the bus the year after I hurt my back – is still grumbling and hot. Ah, but pain is what tells you that you’re alive.
Daughter Katie came over last night. I picked her up after work (Dax tried to scare me by materializing next to my car window, but Katie had the kindness to warn me, so I let him know that he WOULD have given me a heart attack if I hadn’t been warned. He also told me the size of his paycheck, which was respectable for his age and educational level) and then fed her and Jeff home baked schnitzel and veg, and we talked and watched CSI and the Mentalist, which amusingly enough had identical plots, and then we walked up to 7-11 where I got her bus tickets and milk and eggs for myself, waited with her for her bus and then walked home. Canada Way is so noisy for pedestrians it’s practically deafening; two streets in Jeff and I enjoy a very peaceful little enclave, no barking dogs or noisy neighbours, and yet we’re smack in the center of Edmonds, 10th, Kingsway and Canada Way, all busy arterial streets. We do get train noise at night as it echoes in the Fraser Valley and comes up the hill; we get the eerie booming noises at night that are actually special effects explosions down in that movie set off of Marine down in the flats; and we get airplane noise a fair bit, although rarely at very low levels, and hardly ever helicopter noise, which scares the crap out of me.
Soon there will be a visit by the rest of Paul’s family to abide for a while in the bosom of the alternative justice system of BC. I have decided that with all my quirks and drama I’m best off staying away. My mother is hosting them and that will be the right end of the family to shelter and help them while this goes on; who can say what will happen but I earnestly hope for some closure and a feeling that it’s what John would have wanted rather than a trial and jail for the woman whose inattentive driving killed him.
I am very seriously thinking of either giving Ziva to a family member or selling her. I have taken so much pleasure in owning her that it may seem a little odd, but if I’m going to be that close to the new location of the office and I can still borrow Jeff’s car occasionally to shop, I should be in good shape to have enjoyed her and then released her back into the wild. Neither of the kids have evinced much interest because they don’t really have the cash flow.
I am waiting for Jeff to awaken so I can cook him breakfast. Finn pancakes and coffee; I’m going to have mine with applewood smoked cheddar.
I have shippiles of work to do today; I have Valentines to create. I am planning on sneaking into work on Sunday after church and putting them in people’s mail trays. Every year it’s the same thing. People are travelling, or they never check their mail trays, and the next thing you know you’re getting thanked for the Valentine on March 1st.
I brought home the flowers Jeff and the folks gave me and they are still gorgeous and sweetly scented. I know cut flowers are frowned on by some people in my connection, but I will never frown. Their colour and scent brightened my work area and made many other people happy but me for the balance of the week, and now they’ll be pretty in my kitchen until they’re done.
I send a hug into the ether for Lady Miss B and warm wishes to her hub and miniB, and a big old mushy group hug for Tom and Peggy, my folks and brother (nearly typed bother, and that was NOT my intent), Scott for digging up the name of the psychologist for me, my coworkers Mike Y and Hassan and Kev and Patricia, and I blow kisses at Veronica. Sneetchy scowling at some other folks for workpain, but I won’t name them. More hugs for Rev. Katie who visited me in sickness and hell that’s what ministers are s’posed to do, and Sue, Carol, Kathleen and Gary for a really good board meeting. I wish the contractors working on the new building the time, money and safety to do a good job.
I wish a lot of things. It’s strange to think that this time last week I wished for nothing but cessation of wishing.
Life is good. I’m going to go work on Dandelions Dreaming now, it’s the best thing I can think of for Peggy’s birthday. Later today I’m going to talk to Jeff about capturing video from games so I can do something really kickass for Left4Dead/Rising in a Zombieland Redemption, which is the new and deliberately awkward title for my zombie choon, and it may get even longer, at which point I’ll shorten it again. Such is the creative process; you put your best shit in, you take you best shit out, you put your best shit in, and you shake it all about.