Settler words&music, (leanpub.com/upsun) living where privilege meets precarity in MST country. she/her/they———– Novels: Midnite Moving Co., Upsun; Sweep Off Those Waves coming in 2020, Hair Sinister after that. —Restore All Indigenous Lands!
Feeling MUCH better today; so far I’ve finished a letter to pOp; emptied the dishwasher and tidied the kitchen, brushed Buster, watched another “Debris” (I’m doing a rewatch for a particular reason), and finished the shrimps I ordered yesterday and had another piece of halibut AND a bowl of cereal and a cup of tea. NOM
After the dentist warned me that this top left back tooth would be sensitive, and that the filling is in “Jeez Dave how do you hold your head up” territory as regards size, I’m happy to say that my bite was better than when she started with it (she appears to have trued up my jaw, which may help with my grinding problem) and there is no more than the usual soreness you have after getting a dental dam jammed in your mouth. And this is less than a day later, so I’m pleased.
Reddit is packed with lightning pictures from last night, in east Van – I didn’t hear or see a thing, being restfully sleeping at the time.
I’m so irritated. I printed the letter to pOp out backward, but the printer just barfed on it, and I sighingly reverted to printing it right way about. So my evil plan to make pOp read one of my letters in a mirror did not come to pass!
Well, not much. Walk in Lougheed Mall and picked up some veg with Paul. I was feeling so exhausted but there was chicken to cook in the fridge so I made asparagus and mini potatoes and corn and breaded chicken breasts for an early supper and then pretty much collapsed after that. I did a little tidying but the air is so oppressive I felt like crap.
AQI currently 139, went up and down all night.
Currently putting together a list of the birds seen and heard in Deer Lake Park. I think it’s marvellous that when I went to the list there was no American Coot! But American Coots come to Deer Lake all the freaking time, so immediately I was one up on the list.
The list is the names of the birds and their habitats and songs, since Paul and I are tired of always hearing the birds and never seeing them. I already know that we’ve repeatedly heard both ospreys and merlins, which blows me away. Their chittering calls are very distinctive. Getting the info here.
Insomnia. Woke at 10:30, up til 3, back down again and up at 8.
Got some bad news the other day and I’m still processing it, mostly by sleeping. I’ll comment publicly after I get the test results, probably a week at least. Side note to mOm, who will worry— it’s not that big a deal, I’m just easily crushed these days and once again I’ll be asked to change all of my eating habits, which I am seriously disinclined to do.
Can’t I just quietly die ? <—– what a wuss. And no, that’s just me being drama llama’s fave hanger-on.
Also, the fact that I’m getting this news a couple of months after I think I had COVID is really, really pissing me off. There are so many things we don’t know, but I won’t be a bit surprised if I’m not the only person this happened to, although proof will take years.
I am having trouble marshalling my thoughts and I’m having a hard time telling my physical from my emotional sensations.
I don’t want to leave the house, but we’re going to go shopping.
I don’t want to make someone else sick. The winnowing fan hasn’t come close yet and I don’t want it to. I want to walk a golden path through this because I deserve it. I want to catch it to burn off my sins. I want to catch it to spare ones that I love, as if the virus knows that kind of math.
The math of dreams and denial; the math of a sick thought burning a furrow through my nerves.
I need sugar, and flour, and toilet paper, and I don’t know what we’re going to find at the store.
8:23 am – we shopped during the old people’s hour, and it was okay, but there is no sugar, no flour and no toilet paper.
seven hours of blessed sleep last night, most welcome. The weighted blanket the children gave me continues to be one of the best gifts I ever received in terms of keeping the kindness of the givers clearly in mind and its effectiveness.
Newfoundland is experiencing hurricane blizzards, and once again Rex Murphy limns his irrelevance with a lovely misstep, lining weather and climate up together to ‘prove’ that global climate change is not occurring.
It’s weird weather, all the time, until the new normal in about 150 years.
The new fic, which is basically how I grab three major and two minor but re-appearing characters and toss them into a domestic support situation with a major mental illness and a newborn baby girl and five important dyadal relationships to see how witty I can make the dialogue, is coming along nicely.
Screencap of five twitter trends: Jesus Christ, snowstorm, Newfoundland, Rex Murphy and YouShouldntHireMeBecause
Watched Avengers Endgame. I found it quite enjoyable compared to most of the superhero movies out there, a good exit from the franchise(s) for Scarlet and Robert.
Jeff is enjoying the performance of Ned Dennehy as Paddy in Glitch on Netflix. Apparently when he was cast, the director was ‘looking for the best looking actor in Ireland and Colin Farrell wasn’t available’. One can characterize Mr. Dennehy as many things, but good looking in the standard issue way is not one of them. LOL
Also he was Hastur in Good Omens; he was fricking fantastic. His screaming is really epic.
Walked to Timmy Ho’s yesterday with Jeff; I’m well in train for getting 150 minutes of walking in, and when I’m walking Alex to school I’ll be getting a minimum of 300 minutes a week in with a school aged child in tow so I imagine I’ll instantly be in shape for that.
Anyway, I think I’ll head off to Timmy Ho’s again; I really enjoyed that coffee yesterday and what can I say, I’d enjoy the walk before it gets so hot we melt.
I am not always smart about my physical limitations, and I worked on Mike last night past my ability. So I have a very sore right shoulder which I am being gingerly with, and also recognizing I’m coming up on two years for breaking my right shoulder in the first place…. and I’ll be throwing somatic fart bombs at myself to remind that on this day a bad thing happened, cause that’s how humans who understand a calendar roll. Stuff that’s on the surface gets stuffed under, like the motion of Kelvin-Helmholtz waves in that first mutual encounter with shear.
I want you to read it here first. If I’m wrong, I’m wrong with a big smile on my face. But I’m tellin’ you, the features on Pluto are not physical. They are clouds. The atmosphere is so cold that weather systems can form hexagons, and they are nose to tailing across the atmosphere like a dragon. I bet you also that the hexagons play crack the whip, and sometimes one of the hexagons will break off the end and die. The different colours of the surface are from the large scale weather systems picking up tholins off the ground where they’ve been deposited and mixing them with other compounds that change the albedo of the top of the atmosphere. It just LOOKS like physical features. Closer to the ground, pretty much everything is reddish orange. There are also scars from collisions and impacts but I think the picture we’re getting from Pluto is weather, almost all of it.
I’m taking myself off line for writing for the rest of the day. I’m in a very strange mental state and I just want to sit and try to process.
Last night Mike played Poems Prayers and Promises for me, by John Denver (I thought that it was a Denver tune before he told me, so I’m glad my ability to see another artist is not completely verkockt) and it was amazing.
Then he practiced the guitar portions of a bunch of classic Simon and Garfunkel, and that’s what I fell asleep to. Sometimes the simplest magic is the most powerful.
I’m feeding Ayesha, so I need to figure out when I’m heading over there this afternoon. I am SO HAPPY it started to rain. We all need it, physically, environmentally, emotionally.
Spamalot was absolutely wonderful, and Marylke a delight as a companion for the theatre. She’d never seen Monty Python and the Holy Grail so she came new to all the wonderful gags. Then I came home and saw something that you will see too if you google Morgan Freeman Helium. B’lieve me, it’s worth it.
I’m underslept and it’s a crappy day out there, but I have one week and one more day of work and it’s starting out a good day here in dried fruit and pasteurized nut land.
so…. one of my most contemptible obsessions is celebrity gossip. Except I like celebrity gossip about Jewel Staite and Liev Schreiber, not Prince George and Kim Kardashian. So, in my normal way, I looked up Derek Jacobi when I started watching Cadfael and learned to my delight and amusement that Ian McKellen had a tremendous crush on him back when they were pupkins coming up in the theater. So we’re talking around the time I was born. NOW they are in an ITV program together about an aging gay couple; show’s called Vicious which of course I am looking forward to now like a slavering fool. Bring it on, Netflix, I can hardly wait for the moment when Ian gets his wish and plants one on Derek. Happy sigh.
Shop is being shown again today for the second time to one set of buyers and I am still getting strong interest.
Speaking of Chipper, she made my day, my week, my month when, having learned that Paul and his girlfriend, and two married couples I know well, plus his mother, were all going to Red Deer for his b-day, she offered me the use of the spare bedroom during that time. Much restored in spirit, I thanked her, but I suspect if Paul had wanted me to be there he would have invited me… snarf.
I have reinstalled Skype on the Mac if anybody wants to talk to me. I am u_must_b_joking (same as LiveJournal).
I woke at 2:30 and stayed awake for a couple of hours, then slept again. I woke up and thought “I know what time it is – it’s 9:30!” Then I checked my computer and it was 9:25.
Jeff has YAY made more coffee, so I think I’ll stagger out into the kitchen and review my to do list.
I had a lovely long chat with Keith last night. He had a wonderful time in Toronto and had many stories to tell of old friends and family. He very much enjoyed hanging out with Peter and Sarah, and said that getting Kaileagh and Sophie into the same room was pretty funny (they are both high energy wirey blondes with attitude). Grandma Phyllis is about the same as always, only a little less mobile, but she must have been very happy to have so many of her family and family friends about her, given that she’s had two dreadful losses in the last few years.
My new song on Otto is NOMMING ME BRAYNZ! It uses 7, count ’em, 7 chords, all in rapid fire succession, and also requires finger picking, so it’s at the outside edge of my ability to play. Oh Muse darling you are a cruel and uncaring personage.
I continue to await with interest the comments of the minister on the new toon.